My pain has been noticed

Okay so if you guys have read a blog post earlier on about me cutting myself, I was caught. When my mom came in my room to wake me up one morning,she saw the cuts on my wrists and started crying. I told her that I did it for fun and I will never do it again, but it pained me to lie to her,as I knew I would do it again.It hurts so bad on the inside to handle stress this way.My mom is really upset and wants me to see a psychologist...I don't want to hurt her anymore...I don't...AHHH!!!!! Please get me out of this hell hole. =(