Nightmares

These few nights I've been getting nightmares... Nightmares which have been getting worse and worse. My mother has been woken up by my screaming and mumbling on few occasions. And on some occasions, I even wake up and sleepwalk...From what my mother has said, I have been turning on the lights in our house.. What's scary is that, I remember what the nightmares were. I remember on one night, a few weeks back, I dreamt that I was looking at guys on my computer screen...Then my mother barged into my room asking 'WHAT'S THIS!?! WHAT'S THIS!??' and I was screaming and crying.
 I know it's abit cliche for me to have everything on this blog linked back to my sexuality, but I feel that all my problems are tied in with my sexuality of being gay. But I don't think that's the true problem, I think it's the fact that I'm hiding it. I worry that one day...I may wake up dead... That would be the real nightmare...