I AM SUCH AN ASSHOLE!

Right now I am extremely depressed. Because of a blog post my friend wrote about. and It was about ME. Okay.So she's my art classmate,lets just call her May, and we both got C for Art for our promotional exam. So as a joke, I told her 'Haha, I got a C for art and I only did it in a day' in a joking manner as I knew her art work was way better than mine ; and at that moment she smiled too. But I these few days when I approached her and sat at her table, it seems she would just ignore me or give me one-lined answers, and would just plug in her ear piece and continue listening to her music. Anyway, this was the blog post she wrote about me...

I WAS SO HURT WHEN I READ THIS!!!

I didn't know she had so much hatred towards me while 'stupid little me' was thinking we were close and great friends. I can't beleive how stupid I was to make such an ignorant comment that was so insensitive and ignorant. I really feel like a fucking dumbass now. I knew May was already sensitive so why did I say something as stupid as that!?!? I don't know how I'm going to face her in school from now on because I really feel embarrassed over this. I am such an asshole.

I really hope May forgives me... Since she's in my art class and it'll be so awkward to face her every week...

I really hope she forgives me...

EDIT :

Okay... after thinking about this incident for awhile I'm thinking why am I bringing myself down for keeping it real with her? Maybe I was a little too isnensitive about it, but must she go this far to verbally abuse me like that in her blog? 'shove my sadness in my face'? WHEN DID I DO THAT!? I meant it as a joke!!!

 

OH AND YOU KNOW WHAT THE FUNNY THING WAS!? I sat right beside her on Thursday,27th October, when the blog post was actually posted on 26th october. and she didn't even confront me about it and I had to find out after reading her blog today....

I guess some people can't take jokes. Although I don't feel that I'm really in the wrong, I still hope I could be friends with her, she was a really nice person when she wasn't all bipolar up my ass...

hmph...

 

Cutting

I've begun to cut myself again after all the sadness these past few days. But I don't want people to find out.Maybe I shouldn't be so stupid to do it on my wrist...Maybe somewhere obscure like my legs...

Anyway, today when I was in school one of my good friends saw the cuts on my left arm and asked if I've been cutting myself.I felt really bad about lying but I just had to.She d my arm to check and I pulled my arm away and ran away.I shouldn't be so stupid in the future :(