Art Project

Just thought I'd share an art project that I did for about a month.I was assigned to design a cube with a message behind it. The theme was 'Cube Enigma'. My work was basically about the detrimental effects of consumerism and how something so colourful could be so bleak and dark. haha.But this is ironic cos I'm totally obsessed with fashion...ahh,I guess that's art for you,an endless maze of paradox and contradiction.Anyway I'll just show you pics of what I did...

Ok so these two sides of the cube signifies the myriad of consumerism and how it is is a chaotic manner.The colourful exterior symbolises the dynamism of consumerism and how celebrities propel such movements. The lady beside the Michael Jackson drawing shows obsession with aesthetic perfection through plastic surgery.

 This side shows the subliminal messaging of consumerism as you can see there's a face within the forehead of 'The Joker' and how the spray painted words are reversed.

 Ironically adding a barcode at the bottom of an artwork which is against the concept of economic value.

Interior possesses a stark contrast from the outside as I used only white and black with a hint of green and brown.The 'mindless worshipper' of consumerism is worshipping the angel; pure,being sucked into a vortex as the body is attacked by 'brands'. The long arms of the worshipper suggests his longing for materialism.The coffin at the back with the plants signifies the environmental impacts of consumerism. Spikes above also shows the precarious position the worshipper is in.
Anyways,I was really inspired by fashion and how clothes have that aesthetic quality no matter how grotesque it is. Donatella Versace was a huge inspiration.

Fashion Photography!

If you guys didn't know, I am also an artist,photographer and aspiring fashion designer. So recently me and my classmate, Nat, Collaborated to do an amateur photoshoot just for our own pleasure. And the photos actually turned out amazing! Check it out!

Styling/Photography/Direction : Masochistic teen

Model : Nat

This was actually funny because the first time I ever met Nat at the start of the year, the first words to her from me were 'You look like a model' . Which would probably be awkward to most people but she said ' Yea I get that alot'. Haha I love her! and she was actually a great sport and liked the whole concept! I loved shooting her and hope that there may be future shoots for us! =)

<3

Masochistic Teen

Gay Bullying

There's this guy in my class that's just OH MY GAWD!!! In a bad way.He is everything bad and nothing good to me.He's simply a bully. Seriously he is so vain and it can't even help his ugly face.He is what I would call a 'typical straight
Guy' .For the past few months, he made my life a living hell after he found out I was gay. I knew once he found out I would be doomed because he already poked fun at my effeminate disposition at the start of the year. He is just a sad little creature. He actually claimed to support the LGBT community when he insults me. The harassment had gone from bad to worse.He start touching me for no reason e.g putting his arms around me.Or even put his Jan on my lap.I tried to ignore it to show any fear but it was really too much I was even shaking because I was so angry. He smacked my butt and winked at me everytime I saw him. But when he finally groped me while I was walking to the school's library infront of everyone, that was it. I was so fucking embarrassed it haunted me for months.I decided to confront him about my hate towards him but he seemed to express
Empathy.But that was immediately covered
By sacarstic remarks.GOD I HATE HIM!!! I really hopes
He is not in my class next year!!! But things are better now that I ignore his existence every single
Moment.When he tried to talk to me, I look at him and roll my eyes .When he asks me a question, I tell him to ask someone else. Right now I'm in a better place...
Or maybe not...

Gay ; It's Complicated

Ok I am in a complicated relationship right now. If you guys don't know yet, I am gay. AND from an all boys high school! Complicated right? NOT SO MUCH COMPARED TO NOW. Ok so now I'm in a mixed gender college and in the first few months, it was really one of the first times I had direct communication with girls. So there is this girl in my Chinese class, whom I knew she could very well be my best friend ; Loves to have fun,play,laugh and is crazy like me. But at that moment, I confused that sort of friendship with love. I actually told her I loved her and would love to go out with her. We went on dates, movies, and even kissed a couple of times. But none of them were of any substance, meaning it was as if I kissed my brother or sister.So right now I realized that I am not in love with her . So these past few months I've been trying to break off daily communication with her to ease my way out of the relationship without hurting her feelings. I know this sounds douchey and cowardly. But how am I supposed to say ' I'm sorry I'm not in love with you, I'm gay'. So right now we still treat each other like good friends. But we NEVER talk about the relationship we have or once had. It's awkward yet relieving at the same time. Knowing that she does not really care for that. But I hope that this does not bite me in the ass in the future. The funny thing is, alot of my close girl friends in the school know that I'm gay, but she doesn't . and strangely enough, one of my closest girl friends is her good friend! So it's either she does not want to carry on the relationship with me, or she knows I'm gay. But right now, as I stalk her Twitter account, there seems to be a new guy in her profile picture. So I'm hoping she has found someone better than me.Obviously someone who does not lie to her face and tell her 'I LOVE YOU'... Oh my gosh, I'm such an unfair asshole. I really should not be this cowardly in my sexuality but some things must be kept secret...

I feel popular yet unpopular

I live such a polar life. One day I could be surrounded by friends having lunch, the next I'll be sitting by myself wishing there were people beside me to talk to and confide in. Why do I live such a life? I guess it all lies with my class. I feel like I can communicate better with girls and they get me better. Anyway, my class comprises of an equal mix of guys and girls. I don't know why I can't communicate smoothly with either gender. The guys don't get why I behave the way I do ; Effeminate. and the girls don't get why I don't hang with the guys... Actually I would rather have recess with the girls in my class but the girls sit in one table and the guys sit in the other. It would be so embarrassing to sit with the girls instead of the guys, which is like a social suicide, like shouting ' Come insult me, I am gay! ' ... I wished I was in a class with majority of them being girls. Why do I live such a perplexed life? and now I have exams to deal with hmph... Then,,,you may ask me why am I surrounded by friends sometimes? Because they are made up of people from other classes who do get me, and what I am suffering. But even so, I still can't reveal everything to the people around me, because I have been hurt one too many times... I just want to treasure the friendships and bonds I have currently =)

Albino Beauty

Shaun Ross

Diandra Forrest

I was watching The Tyra Banks Show which featured 2 albino models (Diandra Forrest and Shaun Ross) shown above, who talked about their personal struggles with albinism.Albinism is a defect of melanin production that results in little or no color (pigment) in the skin, hair, and eyes. It's truly great to see two strong people overcome their struggle with ethnic identity and actually become famous because of their difference. It really shows how some part of our body which we hate could actually be turned into something positive. Take Lady Gaga's nose,she mentioned in interviews that she used to be me fun of because of her nose and look where she's got now, with her nose being a prominent feature in all her depictions. I als did a little research on albinism and found that animals were also able to possess this beauty. I was really amazed with some of those pictures..Check it out.

Prosperity Vs Individuality

It seems like individuality revolves around prosperity now; a symbol of social status. For example, obesity, an unwanted problem in urban societies, is a sign of prosperity in some countries, having exotic pets also shows prosperity,and fashion brands too. Clothes without brands are disregarded...


A situation similar to this would be the fascinating sub-cultures in the Middle-East and North America. Women are treated like queens.A Total opposite to the urban society where everyone wants to be thin .In the fashion industry, Difference in physical appearances appreciated and treasured . So why can't we appreciate everyone for how they look like, I mean underneath we're just asking for acceptance.Whether if you have no skin pigmentation or you want to achieve a more ideal weight. Within our own society,all we want is just to conform to the social norms and be accepted. Sure, we may want to step our of our boundaries once in a while but ultimately, we want to be recognized for our choice of risk-taking whether it is fashion or open sexuality.We are not really encouraged to be different. People who live their lives in a way that defies cultural attitudes and conventions and think in a way that most people do not are seen as weird, eccentric and outcasted.
However, with people who strive to conform to the 'rules' of society, they not only lose their physical self, but also our mental self. Which ulimately leads to a decline in individuality. In the case of albino animals : Why is it animals of a specific species which come in different physicality and form are unique and exotic while humans who are physically different are weird,strange...outcasts?
So We,as humans, are able to treat  animals with care and respect while we shun our human friends? Another thing about exotic animals is that they create individuality for someone.For example, if someone were to own a snow loris, they are seen as different in a positive manner. But when someone possesses a unique feature in their appearance, take for example a crooked nose, they are already judged upon by their appearance before direct interaction. But this is the way a modern socket is built on, a mechanized system where children are where parents hope their children to become doctors or lawyers and the cycle just goes on and on.


However, I feel that acquiring true prosperity is the process of aligning your thoughts in a manner you have thought your whole life. ; Breaking free from the worries of other's opinions. Dump all the conformist thoughts that was injected into you since young and be who you really are.






''Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent '' - Eleanor Roosevelt

What do you do when you get mad?

Some people scream, some people exercise and others blog. For me, I have a mix of everything.If you had read some blog posts in the past, you would know that I used to cut myself to relief pain,stress or anger.But now,I found a much better way of releasing my anger towards something : Painting. But not just any type of painting, it's a style with lots of emotion in it called 'Expressive Painting' . Call me weird,but this is one of the most cathartic methods of releasing stress I have ever tried! Okay so a few days ago, I quarrelled with my mom because she didn't understand why I did the things I do (e.g wanting to be an individual by dressing up however I want to and wearing outrageous outfits) and even blamed my friends as influences and wanted me to stop seeing them. Angry, I decided to unleash my rage on the wall of my small little 200 square feet room... and left a post-it note on the wall saying 'Dear Mom,I'm not trying to hurt you,I was just releasing my anger'' The result was this :

 

 

 

I just dripped magenta acrylic paint and just scratched and attacked my wall like a madman. Strangely enough, I felt great after that...Although my heart was still racing and I was sweating like a dog( Just an analogy), I felt relieved. I'm not encouraging you guys to go all rampagy on your room but I was just sharing my personal experience...
Okay so you want to know how my mom reacted to this. She was quite mad at first but after she saw the note she calmed down a little. I told her that this was a great way for me to express my anger and she mellowed down a little. I agreed that I would paint over the wall to cover it up because she,being an auspicious person, didn't want the room looking like a murder scene. So I'm gonna re-paint my wall,but I assured my mom that the wall would definately be ruined again...

Online Shopping

WOW!I can't believe the wonders of online shopping! In a city where fashion is not a huge part of the society, online shopping is sure a life-saver for fashion obssessed freaks like me!I was introduced to the online shopping scene a few months back and since then I cannot stop browsing online and saving up for a nice new style. Having a funky style, a city like Singapore doesn't really cater to guys like me who have an eye for designs.
On the topic of online shopping, I recently got a cheap vintage bag at S$59 (US$48).Although I love to munch on modern craziness,I always have a soft spot for vintage stuff in my heart...