The struggles beginning 2011

Well, it's about 4 hours before the end of the year and here I am writing a new blog post...I just want to record down the drama which happened at the beginning of the year...I still remember the day of the O level results..I was so nervous.Before the release of the results, I intended to further my education in Anglo-Chinese Junior College...But on the day of the results I knew it was impossible..Because I had gotten 15 points for my L1R5..I was so disappointed because I thought the worst scenario was that I'll get 13 points but I guess I was wrong.I remember my English teacher looking at me saying 'Are you okay? Do you have CCA points to pull you up?' and I just smiled and walked away...People were crying, laughing, cheering but all I could do was to be expressionless... Because although the result were saddening, it wasn't unexpected...So it was time to choose Which school I wanted to go to...and I just put ACJC as my 1st choice(which I totally regret because no one told me that a person who was 7 points above the Cut-Off point would definitely not get in) and being the superficial person I am, i put the other JCs according to their Cut off point for the previous year... On the day of the release of school posting, I was sooo upset that I was posted to Jurong Junior College, a school which didn't even cross my mind...And even worst, I was posted to the science stream! And im totally NOT a science person.So I appealed to other JCs online for fun and even LIED about my results, by taking off 1 point, leaving me with 14 points...And Tampines Junior College called and told me I have been accepted but needed to verify my results, and because I knew my results weren't accurate, I decided to decline.But that really showed how desperate I was to get out of the science stream.In Jurong JC, the cut off point for the arts stream was lower so I couldn't get in... Anyway, I began to appeal to polytechnics as my true. Passion lies in fashion.But the results for that would only be released a month later and I didn't want to deal with the stress of JC life in the science stream.So out of desperation, I appealed to Pioneer Junior College, a college which DID NOT cross my mind at all! I didn't even put it down as any of my choices! Not even considering putting it as my last choice! and you must understand how hard it was to make a transition from an All Boys school to a co-ed school especially one in the Heartlands where many of the students converse in Mandarin(a language which I hated). On the day I appealed, the principal of the school called me down to the school...Which was obvious my appeal was successful...but I wasn't happy one bit.Because I was awaiting the appeal results from other Junior colleges.But I decided to stay in thus school for the time being. I was straight away brought to the orientation where the school was having a mass dance.It was sooo awkward walking across the hall and everyone staring at me..Soon, I made lovely friends and created bonds and connections...it was that which made me love this school so much. A month later, I received my appeal results to the fashion course in Temasek Polytechnic and it was successful...Damn...I thought to myself..'After all that trouble I still have to go through another Dilemma' to stay in the college or to go to polytechnic...But because of the bonds and friendships I made in Pioneer Junior College, I decided to remain there...But the first three months there were super tough.




People found me weird,eccentric and i was outcastes.I gave compliments to girls and used cheesy pick up lines to make friends and people thought I was some kind of pervert.Everyone in m class gossiped behind my back and I was their cheap entertainment...But I found people who understood me in my Art Class. Everyone seemed to appreciate differences.It was my refuge..I always stayed in the artroom during recess and painted and drew...


Fastforward 7 months later..People in my class seem to understand me more and respect my personality.And to think the school that wasn't even on my mind would be a school I am now proud of. And to even become an Orientation Group Leader for 2012's batch would never have crossed my mind...


It's been one hell of a year!


Lazy Leon

Christmas & New Year's Eve!

Christmas has just passed and I had a blast! I can't believe I'm saying this but I had sooooo much fun playing family games with my cousins like stacko and Taboo! It really allowed time to pass freaking fast! before we knew it, it was already 8pm and we all left for home. The presents giving was pretty much screwed cause only our aunties brought presents randomly and it was also distributed randomly...In the end I got a Cherry Blossoms facial mask which is okay I guess...But guess what my brother got. He got a food container and...IT WAS DONATED BY MY MOM...LOL. And my mom was like 'nevermind I like this container I can use' ... 

Delicious macaroons!

Vegetarian sushi made by my aunt!

Cousins & I!

Playing Stack-O together

Happy after I managed to remove a brick without it falling...

It also happened to be my cousin Edmund's birthday on Christmas!

Anyway I begged my mom to give me her credit card number so I could buy a nice mustard colored bag I found online at only 25 pounds with free shipping from asos.com!! 


I swear the stuff there are super nice. But right before she was going to allow me to buy it...She discovered a white(at least it was) bag in my room and screamed!!! She was so mad that I ruined a 16SGD white bag I got from Taiwan but I thought I added something different to it...Anyway I waited till she cooled off after a Christmas dinner before I asked her again and she said okay. phew! So I'm waiting here impatiently for the bag to be shipped over! just hoping it would ship over before school re-opens on the 9th of January!


and I can't believe it's already New Year's Eve...What a year it has been. I remember the first time I stepped into Pioneer Junior College and for the first 3 months I felt like I couldn't fit in...But after I managed to open up to people, I feel less of an outcast now. So I hope 2012 would be a year full of fun,happiness and of course stress for A Levels!!!


Lazy Leon

Renovation is tiring me out

My house has been a mess since the renovation started and we even had to stay over at my aunt's house due to the polishing of our room's floors ! There is barely enough space to walk around the house now...


BUT...I love my room's new color! But when my mom first saw the colour she screamed cause of the intensity of the green...But I wanted cotton candy pink at first but she said it's for 'girls'...Sigh , if only she knew me...

Lazy Leon

Bitches Be Staring

Stupid bitches...Everytime I make an effort to dress fashionably even if it's causl people have to stare me down like I'm some freak.It's not my problem you want to wear an ugly ass giordano T shirt with a pair of jeans right? So typical of Singaporeans...When I wear clothes with drapery it's like a staredown competition. An because of this, I always think twice about wearing something elaborately casual (I know...Oxymoron) just because I don't want my body to be analyses by everyone. But for now, bitches can stare and I don't care.


Lazy Leon...

Brainwashed North Koreans

I'm sitting here watching a Live broadcast of Kim Jong-Il's funeral which is really pathetic . When I watch the North Koreans balling their eyes out for that man who literally imprisoned them in their own country and deprived them of knowledge...Not to mention his ugly fashion sense..I mean... Shaved sides with a poofed up hair? He's just one hair color away from being an ah beng in Singapore, and he certainly can't pull off that shade of green he wears all the time.. Moving on from his fashion, I really feel like jumping into the television set and slapping the shit out of the North Koreans and tell them to WAKE UP. I really feel sorry for them because they are being deprived of so much...Children  not being able to play Maplestory, missing out on great movies like Inception and of course Social Networking sites!  Quoted from an online article 'Many North Koreans also believe that Kim Il-Sung and Kim Jong-Il "created the world" and can "control the weather".' I feel it's very sad... I mean, if they can believe that a single human being created the world, what other propaganda nonsense are imbedded in their minds? Hmm... Okay after writing all this, I'm starting to feel it's unfair to judge and laugh at their abysmal cries and profuse weeping when they obviously worshipped him like 'God' and Thoth that he was their savior...All we can hope for now is that his son,Kim Jong-un( the one that is going to be taking over his father's reign) would be able to free them. Which is unlikely. Why why why... This really makes me wonder if our own government is keeping things from us.. What if aliens are living among us? What if we are not as free as we think we are? what if we are living in a world of lies... NAH. I shall not think so much in my one lifetime,I rather have fun living in lied than to care about that..


On a brighter note, the world has one less Kim to worry about now! Hmm now for Kim Kardashian...


Off to sleep now!


lazy leon

Nature

I took a lone walk down the canal outside my school and just breathed in the fresh air and gazed at some plants. It's really theraputic for me.. People don't get nature like I do, they don't see the beauty in it. But I happy that I do...

Air-con change

The air-condition guys decided to just suddenly pop over to change the air-con in preparation for the renovation that's gonna happen.They just came over and patched the floor with cardboard paper and I can't even use the computer! Right now they're sawing off the ceiling!!! I don't know how long it'll take but hopefully I can get back to my room soon!The drilling is sooo dam loud I have to resort to eating in the kitchen!!:(

Shit

 Mabel & I

Sometimes I don't know what is wrong with me.I feel that I am really nice but people seem to give me lots of shit? It's like I have sooo many friends... But none of them close.'Jack of all trades, master of none' I guess it's because I am really insensitive at times but I feel that I would drop whatever I'm doing just to help a friend out.Take for example me & Mabel. Although I feel close to hwe, I don't feel like we are super close. It's just a feeling I get. Maybe I'm too paranoid,hopefully.Since the whole May Ee saga and her blog post about me(read previous blog posts) I don't think I can ever talk to her as a good friend again.She comes off as a fragile,sensitive girl who cares alot but I feel deep down she's a jealous,over-sensitive bitch.I may smile and wave to people in school whom I don't necessarily like, but is that being fake? I think I'm just being a nice human being.But that doesn't pay off.It seems I get more shit from people who I'm nice to.Maybe it's time to change...

I know some people who really do care about me though, I hope...But most of my close friends are girls, but I know I will never be regarded as one of their best friends because girls usually confide in girls with their problems and assume guys won't get it.Well, I do.But they don't give me a chance.That's why I feel I don't fit into the inner circles of either guys or girls.Sometimes, I really don't feel like helping someone, but I will feel bad about it and give in.I even go to the extent of traveling to them just to help them.But it seems they would always have a group of inner circle they hang out with.and I'm just a spare tyre.

But I think I'm just being too sensitive.Just like May Ee.But I don't want to be like her...Because hen you are too sensitive, you become paranoid and lose focus on what's important ; your life and people around you.So I guess I'm just gonna have to work on this problem.

And hopefully gain some real, trustworthy friends who can share my joy,sadness and laughter...

<3

Lazy Leon

Back from Taiwan!

OMG this trip was so fun but tiring! Bought sooo many nice stuff!

Here's a summary...

Day 1 Taipei

The Flight to Taiwan was at 12pm but we had to check in 2 hrs earlier.Because the interior designer came over to do some last minute confirmation of the design, we didn't get ready to leave until 9:40am.And because my dad didn't book the cab correctly, we waited for 10min before comfort cab called us back to confirm our cab.So we were off to the Airport. When we arrived in Taiwan, it was freaking cold... It was like 6pm and the sun was down and temperature was like 12 degrees...We then went to shop at a night market and I got to try the smelly tofu which I loved and bittergourd juice which was rather nasty...The sad thing abt today was the beggars.I saw sooo many beggars and some did not have hands and legs and were kissing the floor repeatedly for donations.My mom gave him some coins.

Me & my Mom on the plane

Beautiful night market

Their famous bittergourd juice. They mix it with honey so it's really quite nice

Buying my smelly tofu which I REALLY loved! best street dish!!!

Day 2 

Today was also shopping again.Got this fabulous bag at only 16 SGD and some dirty stuff...

LOL look at my mom's face

We were sooo shocked when we saw this. but it was just bread. I got one and ate it...My first dick

Yummm With mustard somemore...

My mom actually allowed me to buy these keychains as souveneirs for my friends!

Day 3

Shopped at a. Street market.I lived the food! Especially the famous 'iron egg' and vegetarian popiahs! We Also took a bullet train to our next destination, Hualien. The night was filled with anger.Because while trying to photograph me and my brother, my dad fell into a pond and got his pants wet(no pun intended) and he was fuming mad and blamed it on me and my brother which got us mad...After that, we went back to the hotel...

Enjoying my century egg and tofu..A local delicacy

Day 4

Freaking tired .Woke up and saw my dark circles got worse...Bad start to the morning.Today was pretty much bland with long bus rides to Taitung.Where there were hot springs.Tried the personal one in our hotel room...Then we released lanterns into the skies with our wishes written on it...

Releasing our lanterns into the sky...

Our lantern was the last to float into the sky which was really scary cause' everyone else's lanterns were already high up in the sky and it'll be so embarrassing if ours was the only that was left on the ground. But luckily after help from people around, it floated slowly into the sky...

Day 5

Fucking tired because I only slept for 3 hours last night.Kept up by my dad's snoring.I was sooo irritated. Swore that I will be sleeping alone today...Today we went to a pearl store and my mum got me some powdered pearl for my insomnia .Apparently it's a cure for that. and then we went to a so called 'cat's nose cliff' where a stone is supposed to look like a rock.Then we took a boat to Sun Moon Lake.Small cozy island with many stores.So we shopped alot...

On the rock cliffs..

 To me it just looked like a rock...

Day 6&7

PLAYED ALOT! Got this crazy nice pair of shoes at a night market and went on nice amusement rides at the Cultural center.Took a rollercoaster and high drop! So fun! and to end off our trip, we visited the observatory in Taipei 1O1! Gorgeous view...

 More and More food!!!

I fell in love with this whole rack of shoe design...

But decided to go with this rainbow coloured pair...

SOOOO NICE I LOVE IT!!!

 

When it dropped it was the scariest 4 seconds of my life...

 The cars really looked like ants...

So that was it. Loved my buys! 

One of the things that pissed me off on this trip was the freaking china tourists. So rude and loud.and they don't brush their teeth.Nasty. When we were taking pictures with a rock they pushed themselves into the frame and when my brother was finished taking his pics, one woman called him a 'xiao gou' meaning small dog in chinese. He was like... 'at least I am a dog I don't eat dogs' lol... yea so that was it...

<3 Lazy Leon

Leaving for Taiwan!

Getting ready to leave for Changi Airport right now. I guess this will be my last post for the week! right now there is an interior designer in my house finalizing my room's designs and my dad keeps insisting that I have many drawers to store my books and stuff...But when will he understand I can just throw my books into a box because I need the space for clothes...Hmm. Anyway, leaving now!

My Brother's Birthday!

4 days ago, on the 4th of December, me and my relaives celebrated my brother's 15th Birthday... I'm wondering why after so many years he's still so young...Anyway, we went to a vegetarian restaurant called ' 7 Sensations ' and ordered loads of stuff to celebrate my brother's b'day...

My brother is the one in red, I'm in black&white and my mom's the sexy one in yellow.

Blowing Candles

Cutting Cake

I'm trying to smile with my eyes but I guess I failed...

Cousins...

I'm so happy because none of the photos were editted but I looked fine in them! Maybe it was because I kept excusing myself to the restroom so I could do my hair...

Overall, it was a fun day. Eventhough me and my brother have gone through lots of fights and disputes, I still love him and I hope he loves me as much too. Although he's still a selfish,rude idiot, He's my selfish,.rude and idiotic brother <3