I feel so lonely... Like a girl trapped in a guy's body. Why am I suffering so much? I can't even concnetrate on my studies... Why are guys so mean? I wish I could just perish from the face of this earth. If only I could tell people I am gay without them judging me or having pre-conceived notions... Guys would tease me, some girls wouldn't get why I'm always taking to them and think I'm some kind of a pervertic flirt... People don't get why I dress so flambouyantly... I'm so socially awkward and weird. Maybe I should stop pretending to be what I am not : A socialite. I always try to socialise and talk to everyone around me even if I barely know them. just to keep myself company. But what I don't realize is that those friendships do not last. and once I stop talking to them for about a week or two, we would revert back to total strangers and maybe simply smile when I walk past them... I think I am the type of guy who should always be alone and doing my own thing to avoid drama....hmph
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